Hating other people doesn't make you more lovable. It is like ..making other people feel small doesn't make you big either.

I tend to stay away from people who make me feel small.. like people who keep telling me that I'm not good enough that you can't never do that or this, those people who think they are so high. I like people who tell me the truth and just be honest in a good way.

I just don't want to live my life hating. Hating that person, hating this thing that thing, hating the situation, hating everything. I want to love my life loving everything, every person I met, every subject I learn, everything. plain everything.

I remember the most beautiful moment.. was when I were on summer camp. I always imagine that place whenever I need to find peace. I remember that little bakery shop at a small town in sweden, they sell these chocolate muffins (which are really delicious), and cinnamon something (which also super delicious). So when we have break time we often go there, and I can still remember the price there. The road to the lake is also really beautiful.. the scenery is like a painting or somekind. It was a perfect combination of sky blue and green. The road to the lake was far, but I never got tired since everyone loved each other back then.

Just like songs did, perfume for me also brings back memories. Anna Sui's "dream" is the one I used at sweden, so I really love the fragrance. It is like when I smell the perfume, it feels as if I am there. I am dying to get that perfume since it's really hard to find in my country, but thanks to my friend I finally have it :) In taiwan, it always smell like pear, you know why.

The next most beautiful was when I was at Kuta beach late at night with my friends. I can't remember every conversation but that moment is really beautiful. The smell of the water, the sound of the ocean, my hair felt sticky after a long day, My feet touching the sand is all so clear to me. What I meant beautiful here is what stephen chbosky would call "Infinite moment." The kind of moment when you feel you own the world together. I can't really explain it but I think pretty much everyone have that moment.

"I am very interested and fascinated by how everyone loves each other, but no one really likes each other." -the perks of being a wallflower

wonder what it will be like.

I have free time now woohoo!

It's been very busy ever since and I don't have that much free time like I used to have last year. I kind of miss being boring but I don't mind being busy for a while. Being a senior means you have a lot of responsibility and also a lot to fight for. Even though I didn't do really well on the tryouts.. but I still (amazingly) believe that at the end I will do good.. I need to do more right? even though it means I'm going to be really tired.

Recently I have took guitar courses! I think that playing an instrument is really nice even though it is not as easy as I thought.. since I have small hands and it hurts so much after practice. I know I'm still a beginner but I will seriously learn this so that I can show it off sometimes hehehe.

When I have free time I like to watch cable.. or youtube.. before I go to bed (that's usually really late at night) I like to catch up with my reading. I hate that I don't have much time to read books that I want to read because I always too tired.

In the future I want to learn how to paint. I will continue to do what I like and I know that if I do what I love good things will come along too, so I won't be stressed up by exam weeks, bimbel, school, and other thing.

(monologue)
bye.