so..

I don't want to start thinking again.
Not like I have this last week.
I can't think again.
Not ever again.
I don't know if you've ever felt like that.
That you wanted to sleep for a thousand years.
Or just not exist.
Or just not be aware that you do exist.
Or something like that.
I think wanting that is very morbid, but I want it when I get like this.
That's why I'm trying not to think.
I just want it all to stop spinning.

The Perks of being a wallflower quotes.